letting down your guard

I really liked this quote, and it got me thinking today. It's from Grey's Anatomy, as all good quotes are :)

"Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn’t just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do… as long as you choose your moments wisely."

I think I got to this point last night. I was literally all out of toughness and hardcoreness. My (new) laptop crashed four times, and I lost the essay I was working on... four times in a row. Super, right? And then, my printer decided it would be an opportune time to start printing test pages instead of my homework... five test pages to be exact. Like seriously? On top of the absolutely crazy-packed, stressful day I had just had, and the one coming up, I was starting to lose it. That's where this quote comes in I thing. Acceptance. I'm WAY over-scheduled and over-committed and I say 'yes' to way too many people. I think I need to start realizing that I only do have 24 hours in a day, and it would be nice if a few of those hours could be used for such luxuries as sleeping and eating! And so... during my break between classes, instead of a last-minute cramming session or working on my everlasting volunteer project, I'm relaxing! I'm in bed, journaling, and about to break out a coloring book with my roommate. And you know what? It feels pretty great.